Something happened. We were on our way to my dental surgeon yesterday. To an appointment my ordinary dentist made two months ago. I need a few teeth yanked as a result of deterioration that took place during my illness. Two months off meant I could push it into the future all along. I wasn't apprehensive even up to the last minute.
After several false starts we made it to our new local GP who was really cool and promptly prescribed all the medicines I'd need including a mild valium type pill and heavy duty pain killers. He advised breaking the pills into thirds. The pills could be broken into fourths so S gave me a half to start with; I took another half for the journey; and finally another half when we'd arrived. That was 9 milligrams all told.
I didn't think much about how it affected me. I rode rally shotgun for the trip with driving instructions from Google and it was an arduous course but we made it mostly OK and on time to boot.
The surgeon was very cool. He looked at the X-rays, noticed there was yet another tooth to yank, told us it was a simple job and he'd be finished in twenty minutes. I questioned him: twenty minutes? Twenty minutes, he assured me. Unless I screw up, he joked as an afterthought, in which case it might take several hours. Which all relaxed us a lot.
And that was it. Out to make a new appointment a month from now, get new prescriptions for painkillers and some new valium type pill and motor our way home.
I was zonked from the valium pills. I wasn't awake longer than 21:00 hours. Really beat. Didn't even want to eat dinner. Laid down on the sofa. S served me a plate of food whilst I lie there. Had no appetite but forced it down as well as I could.
Nine hours later - at 06:00 the following morning - I woke and still felt strange. Gone was the ordinary cocktail of nervous edge and mild desperation/depression and suddenly I understood those pills had somehow changed me permanently. Perhaps there were other factors but something really happened.
I'm just euphoric. Not ecstatic - euphoric. I light subliminal feeling of euphoria. And I think it's permanent. Suddenly everything is easy and suddenly I'm a better person for it - a more pleasant person as well.
